Living with fibromyalgia means
facing challenges that most people cannot see and may never understand. The
widespread pain, fatigue, and heightened sensitivity that come with this
condition affect every part of daily life, including the moments that should
bring the most joy. For me, one of the most heartbreaking truths about fibromyalgia is
that it made me scared to hug my kids. Something so simple, so natural, became
a source of fear and pain. I want to share my story because I know I am not
alone in this experience, and I believe it is important to give voice to the
hidden struggles of fibromyalgia that
few people talk about.
Before fibromyalgia
entered my life, hugging my children was one of the purest forms of comfort and
connection. Their small arms wrapped around my neck or their bodies pressed
against me during a cuddle on the couch filled my heart in ways words cannot
describe. But as fibromyalgia symptoms took hold, those same
hugs started to hurt. My skin felt tender to the slightest touch. My muscles
ached with even gentle pressure. And what should have been a moment of
closeness triggered flares of pain that sometimes lasted for hours afterward.
Fibromyalgia causes a condition called
allodynia, where the body perceives non-painful stimuli as painful. This means
that a soft touch, a tap on the shoulder, or a child’s enthusiastic hug can
feel like an assault on the senses. My nervous system, already on high alert, would
misinterpret their affection as a threat. A warm embrace could send shooting
pain through my back, shoulders, or arms. I started flinching when my children
ran toward me, not because I did not want their love, but because I was afraid
of how much it might hurt.
The emotional toll of this was enormous. I felt guilt and
sadness every time I hesitated before hugging my kids. I worried that they
would think I did not love them or that they had done something wrong. How do
you explain to a young child that Mommy’s body hurts in ways that do not make
sense? That it is not their fault, and that I want nothing more than to hold
them close without fear? I did my best to reassure them with words, with kisses
on their foreheads, with hand squeezes, and with soft back rubs. But inside, I
mourned the loss of easy, carefree hugs.
There were days when the pain was so intense that even
the thought of being touched filled me with anxiety. I found myself avoiding
certain situations where hugs might happen unexpectedly. At school pick-ups,
family gatherings, or bedtime routines, I became cautious, always bracing
myself for contact that I both craved and feared. The disconnect between my
heart’s desire and my body’s reaction was one of the most painful parts of
living with fibromyalgia. It
added an invisible layer of emotional pain on top of the physical discomfort
that already defined so much of my life.
Over time, I realized that I needed to find a way
forward, not just for myself, but for my children. I wanted them to feel my
love fully and to understand that my hesitations were about my condition, not
about them. I began talking openly with them in age-appropriate ways about fibromyalgia. I
explained that sometimes my body feels extra sensitive, and that even though I
might ask for gentle hugs or to hold hands instead of being squeezed tightly,
it did not mean I loved them any less. Their empathy and understanding amazed
me. Children are often far more compassionate than we give them credit for.
I also worked on finding strategies that allowed me to
enjoy closeness without overwhelming my body. I discovered that certain
positions and types of touch were easier to tolerate. For example, side-by-side
cuddling, where my kids could lean on me without putting pressure on my most
sensitive areas, became our new normal. Gentle hand-holding, forehead kisses,
and shared blankets during storytime allowed us to connect physically in ways
that felt safe and comforting. By adapting how we expressed affection, I was
able to reclaim those moments of connection that fibromyalgia had
threatened to steal from us.
Self-care became an essential part of this journey. The
more I supported my
body with gentle movement, stress management, and good sleep hygiene, the
better I was able to handle physical touch. On days when my pain was at its
worst, I gave myself permission to rest and to communicate my limits with
kindness. I stopped feeling ashamed of needing to protect myself from pain and
started focusing on the love behind the gestures rather than the form they
took. That shift in mindset helped ease some of the emotional burden.
Fibromyalgia
teaches hard lessons about vulnerability, patience, and resilience. It forces
you to find new ways to navigate relationships, including those most precious
to you. My truth is that fibromyalgia did
make me scared to hug my kids at times. But it also taught me how to deepen our
bond in other ways. I learned to communicate openly, to adapt creatively, and
to focus on the connection rather than the method. Our love did not diminish
because of fibromyalgia. It
evolved, and in many ways, it became stronger.
For anyone living with fibromyalgia and
facing similar struggles, I want you to know that you are not alone. There is
no shame in protecting your body while finding new ways to express affection.
Your worth as a parent, partner, or friend is not defined by how you give or
receive hugs. It is defined by the love, care, and presence you bring to your
relationships. Fibromyalgia may
change how you express that love, but it does not take it away.
Frequently Asked Questions
Why does fibromyalgia make
hugging painful?
Fibromyalgia often causes allodynia, a condition
where even light touch feels painful. The nervous system becomes overly
sensitive, so pressure that would not normally hurt can trigger significant
discomfort or pain.
How can I show affection to my kids if hugs
hurt?
There are many ways to connect without triggering pain. Try gentle
hand-holding, soft forehead kisses, cuddling side-by-side, or using words and
actions to express love. The important thing is the emotional bond, not the
specific form of touch.
Can fibromyalgia pain
from hugs improve over time?
With self-care, stress management, and finding ways to support your
body’s needs, it is possible to reduce sensitivity to touch. Working with healthcare providers and
exploring gentle therapies may
also help lessen pain responses over time.
Should I tell my children about my fibromyalgia?
Many parents find that open, age-appropriate conversations help children
understand and cope with the situation. Explaining your condition in simple
terms can reduce confusion and help your kids develop empathy.
What else can help with touch sensitivity in fibromyalgia?
Gentle exercise, mindfulness
practices, stress reduction, and working with a therapist who understands fibromyalgia can
help. Some people also find that desensitization techniques, such as light
massage or using soft fabrics, improve tolerance over time.

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